Hey there folks. Been a while since you heard from me, haven't ya?
First off, for those who had greeted me happy birthday a while back (and the art comments in my absence), I wanna say my heartfelt thanks for taking time to do so. I will admit I have not been the most appreciative of little things such as that, but my time away has taught me to value each and every little view I get here. You guys are great for rooting there for me, even when I don't always see it. I know God saw it, and He blessed you accordingly.
Now, onto why I have seemingly, proverbially dropped off the face of the earth.
My life? Not been at its finest the past one and a half years I was gone. Pet bird? Pretty much lost for good and made me miserable for a good long deal. Art? Dropped the ball thinking nothing I was gonna come up with was good enough as a Christian and that most of it was purposeless, regardless of actual time or effort put into 'em. By extent that pretty much ruined my chances at earning a Bachelor's Degree in Fine Arts. And I pretty much excommunicated everyone here in my misery, which I realized only recently was a huge mistake on my part.
If you're still willing to read on, I wanna take the opportunity to say how God has worked on all this thus far.
Recently my Steam account had been hijacked of valuable in-game weapons, something that had never happened before. One of those fake item lottery phishes. All my valued in-game weapons from Team Fortress 2, gone (though thankfully the offender is now in custody). Funny thing about that was I felt no real sense of loss or emotional despair. Of course I want my stuff back, but in the event they don't I've made my peace with it. So well, if that stuff's potentially gone for good, I should return here and rebuild where I left off. Maybe to better things.
I struggled with letting deviantART go for good or returning to it for a much longer time than any art block would've. After all, it did indirectly lead me to putting off my studies in my earlier college years (largely my own ego getting in the way). But after recent events I won't go into, I felt this was the right call. And I'm coming back with a whole lot of changes I can promise will happen.
Forgive me for having to brush off the thousands of messages in my absence. For the moment, I can't promise I will be perfectly up to date on everything that has happened, but I will try to pick up the little pieces where I left off. To those I have called friends, well, I leave it up to yourselves whether or not I still qualify to be called that. I've neglected to care enough, I've taken a lot of things for granted for sure. God is certainly going to confront me about it in Heaven, and well, it's plain ugly to leave that to fester whether or not you actually believe God exists. If you believe cutting me off is for the better, I will respect your decision to do so. But if you're willing to accept me back, I swear under Heaven I will do everything I can to make things right and make sure it stays that way, Lord willing. After all, an eternity spent in conflict has no place up there or within us.
On that note, it feels right to be back for the right reasons. I love you guys. Here's hoping accessing deviantART on mobile though can still be improved on, because damn it's hard navigating from a digital pad/cellphone.
To God be the glory ~